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You always find mistakes in your own work, e.g. the contrast isn't big enough, it's not sharp enough, the colors don't match, the composition isn't nice and then you feel discouraged. With some work I feel like I can do better, or the other stuff I've published is better. Then I also pay attention to my Instagram, with some works the colors don't match or they are simply worse than others in my eyes. Then I look at the whole work, so to speak.
Here is one of my first attempts to draw a person more or less realistically. I was relatively happy with my head and hand at the time and was afraid that if I continued to draw I would mess up the picture. Also another work from my first sketchbook, the original plan was to shade the whole thing really nicely with my new alcohol markers. Unfortunately, the paper pulled all of the ink out of the markers. The markers were rubbish after that, as was my mood. Cheers to learn about different types of paper and RIP to my markers. Other projects are forever unfinished because I just didn't feel like it anymore. They are unpublished because I was dissatisfied with the lines of the shading or because they were simply not finished.
A lot of my work remains sketches because the ideas were there, but the time and motivation to finish them wasn't. Sometimes unfinished work is perfect in its unfinished form and completing it would actually ruin the work. I find it difficult to release something unfinished because we are so used to seeing only completed work.
Sometimes I start something without knowing if I'll finish it, just because I want to try it. In hindsight, I always find scraps of projects that have started that remind me of that time, which is actually quite nice. I sometimes take pictures of the process, but it has never occurred to me to publish something unfinished.
A lot of the work I start, I don't finish, because I have an idea, which is often very formed and finished, when something doesn't work out the way I want it, I give up easily and feel discouraged. I almost never publish my work, simply because I'm too quick to compare myself to others. That's not good for me.
With all unfinished projects, frustration and dissatisfaction were actually the reason why they were not finished and also lack of time.
With some projects, the spark just doesn't jump over and then they come to nothing. I also often hear, when other projects interest me more, that I don't have the patience to deepen all the ideas.
As quickly as the enthusiasm arises to implement certain projects, it also evaporates and the project has been gathering dust on my computer ever since. Sometimes I have an idea, implement it and realize that I'm not the first with this idea. Then you have inhibitions about publishing the project.
The task was to use analogue tools to express textures. I tried to represent the gases of Jupiter with cyanotopy and alcohol ink. It wasn't finished because the colours were too mixed or didn't come out the way I wanted. Cyanotopy is a method of developing photographs using sunlight. Alcohol ink is a method of mixing alcohol and ink to create unexpected colour mixtures.
During the process I realize that another idea is better. Or I'll lose inspiration. Sometimes I just don't have the time. On my Instagram, I try to post in a certain style, so some works go unpublished. Preparing a post is also a lot of work and I'm often too lazy for it. Also, I'm worried that it won't go down well.
The sketches I sent in show a lot of pigeons, as I wanted to depict a different perspective on these birds. I feel most comfortable in the medium of drawing and so I always start by sketching mine quickly. I didn't finish the pigeons project because I hadn't found a way to combine all the information appropriately.
Sketches are not a finished product that can be published. The problem with comics is that many frames are similar, you have to draw some characters very often and I often lack the motivation to do so, even though I have very good ideas in my head. With my other paintings, I usually don't feel like the details and subtleties. But I don't publish it because I think I'll finish it at some point.